Today we are putting to rest my little brother. He was 50, but will always be my "little" annoying, instigating, irritating, loving, caring, adorable little brother even though he towered over me . . . . I can not describe the range of emotions I've been through, because they change by the minute.
But first and foremost is shock, I keep shaking my head and repeating "no, no, no it can't be. . . he can't be gone from my life forever. . . . no" I miss him so much!
Where do we go from here? When will this numbness be gone and Dear Lord when will that godawful pain stop!!!!
This was taken on Christmas Eve 2011 . . . . .
